The Songs That Helped Me Become Sober

Music Therapy is Seriously Legit. Like, FR, though!

I don't think I'm alone when I say music is a huge part of my life, and without its healing effects, I highly doubt I would still be sober to this day. I've wanted to do a post like this for a while, and hope you all enjoy it!

So, without further ado, here are the songs that helped me attain, sustain, and maintain my sobriety. I have notated which songs were on repeat whilst I wrote parts of At Least I'm Not The Frog as well. I thought it might be fun to read those bits and listen to the song. Sometimes, you can really feel the influence of the music.

"I listened to music, all the music; I followed its sound, finding sobriety." - Me

"Forever Free" - San Holo (feat. Duskus)

"Beautiful Creatures" - ILLENIUM (feat. MAX)

"About Today" - The National

"Pizza" - Martin Garrix

"Both of Us" - Yellow Claw, STORi

"Body On My" - Loud Luxury (feat. Brando, Pitbull & Nicky Jam)

"People Help The People" - Birdy

"Starships"/"Super Bass"/"The Night Is Still Young" - Nicki Minaj *I basically listened to Nicki Minaj on repeat while writing Electronic Daisy Carnival.

"Idwgaf" - Borgeous, Alex Isaak

"OK" - Robin Schulz, James Blunt

"Getting Over You" - Lauv

"Brother" - NEEDTOBREATHE (feat. Gavin DeGraw)

"Surface" - San Holo, Caspian

"Palace" - Hayley Kiyoko *While writing A Brighter Shade of Gray, I couldn't get enough of this song. It's so upbeat, and I felt I'd come so far in my recovery, I kinda liked the idea of "this is where I leave ya!"

"Say Love" - JoJo

"Electrified" - Lost Frequencies, Kye Sones *This song played quite frequently while writing My House on The Hill, especially when I drunkenly dance under the stars.

"WONDER" - morgxn, Sara Bareilles

"Pacific Coast Highway" - Two Friends (feat. MAX) *While writing the bits that take place in California during Es-Cop-A, I played this song to help me feel the vibes of Cali. Kellan and I also listened to this song a thousand times while driving down the PCH (Pacific Coast Highway).

"Come Back Home" - Petey Martin, Lauren Daigle

"Break My Heart" - Hey Violet

"Sweet Beginnings" - Bebe Rexha

"Faded" - Alan Walker

"Johnny Run Away" - Tones And I

"Still Falling For You" - Ellie Goulding

"I Still See Your Face" - San Holo

"Lucky Strike" - Troye Sivan *Troye Sivan loudly played the whole time I wrote A Minor Awakening, thus the nod in the chapter. He was also on repeat at the time of my life during which that chapter takes place. And today. I, umm, love him very much.

"In My Arms" - Grizfolk, Jamie N Commons

"Colors" - Halsey *Oh, Halsey. How I freaking love her, too! All of her albums played whilst writing Reflections. There were a couple others, but she certainly dominated that chapter!

"5AM" - Amber Run

"Feels Like Coming Home" - Jetta *Es-Cop-A required me to dive deep, and wrestle with an extremely dark, desolate time in my life. As such, I needed music that could not only take me there, but hold me strong, too.

"Temper, Temper" - Sander van Doorn (feat. ONR)

"Bloodstain" - Wrabel

"Black & White" - Sarah McLachlan *Oh some good ol' 90's! I listened to A LOT of classic 90's while doing re-writes. It felt comfy, listening to those old songs and writing.

"Cloud Nine" - Haelos

"When The Party's Over" - Billie Eilish *Oh, Billie. She got me through The Welcome Foundation, literally. I listened to her on my earbuds pretty much the whole time I lived there, and it felt very natural to listen to her while writing that chapter.

"Wanna Be" - Betty Who

"Daisies" - Katy Perry

"Oceans" - Seafret *Kinda sappy, but I listened to this song when writing the parts of Jayce and I. The feel of the song reminds me of how we felt together.

"Forwards" - Tom Day

"Skinny Love" - Birdy

"What About Us" - P!nk

"To Build A Home" - The Cinematic Orchestra, Patrick Watson *This song reminds me SO MUCH of So You Think You Can Dance (real fans will know the audition I'm talking about) and I played it quite often while writing My House on The Hill and Chickenwire Foxtrot.

"Who I Am" - Wyn Starks

Welp, there ya have it. Lemme know if any of those resonate with you! And, as always, have fun!

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